Tuesday, 17 November 2015

Just a little reminder #1

Here I am,

I found myself sitting down and attempting to write a blog, out of the compliments of how I feel today, quite well. It's days like these, the most inspiring are in facets of how an individual's life goes, especially down to the intricate moment that stimulate our being to feel, think and to act in a certain way. Entirely our reaction to the moment at hand is what determines where our life leads...

I guess the real challenging part is actually sitting down, and doing things you don't really want to do. Right now as I write this, I feel like I want to do this very thing, but say tomorrow, am I going to write something? Probably not, perhaps it's the need to talk about something, the need to express. Perhaps that's what I needed, to get away from the idea of school, people, responsibility, etc. I mean it may not be a good thing, but the fact that I know that external factors are the case, I can work towards understanding it, start making a move towards it, of course.

It's not easy, your greatest opponent is the mere resistance, as if the external resistance was the only problem, the biggest one had to be the internal resistance. One's capacity to act even when external resistance kicks in. Being double-teamed by the big bad twin resistance isn't easy.
People often say that your biggest enemy is yourself, that's true. Self-doubt can be like a bomb, a self-destructive bomb that will blow up the path to what you really want if you let it.

But, what really get me all revved up being able to have time for myself, being able to do things I wanted, when I allowed school to dictate that, I wasted a lot of time, NOT knowing what to do with my time. I guess in the end, I should know what exactly I want to do.

I wanted to mention one of my dear friend, Brenda Vasquez. I've known her quite awhile now, we've been through quite a bit together and we were very supportive of one another. She's honestly such a down to earth person, she's wonderful. So when I recently seen the work, the motivation and the way she lives her life, she started to remind me what I've always wanted, to have a reason to be myself. She and her friend decided to start up a website based on their passion, and their passion burns and warms me. I love it, I want to support them because seeing the girl who grew up to be the woman she is now, how can I not? I am happy. Happy for her, that I was a part of that growth within her.

We've complained together, laughed together, now I want to be able to change the world together.

Sometimes, all it is is having the courage to do the things that matter, not just to you, but for others...
in the end, it DOES matter.

"May the universe grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
- Reinhold Niebuhr (modified from the original)

Monday, 24 August 2015

Aspiration, Inspiration and Expiration - (Part 3 of 3: Expiration)

'Aspiration, Inspiration, and Expiration' 


“The universe, I'd learned, was never, ever kidding. It would take whatever it wanted and it would never give it back.”

The universe does not joke around when it comes to YOU. Why? because you are the goddamn universe. You better believe it, you're a part of this as much as anybody else - running away is inevitable, life itself, is an inevitable journey. 

What if, this was an escape from the true reality? That all of this, this crazy world is our dreamscape? Would you be happy with it? Well if not, too bad, you live in it. 
With that said, I wanted to mention this quote I posted earlier in the year:
"Some people look for a beautiful place, others make a place beautiful." 
Now I think that's truly wonderful... Why? because even with all the craze and negative perspective that people, media, and your own prejudice  of your own ego; whatever they or it feeds you, their all stigmatic and bias.  Sometimes you just have to go with the flow, to risk the chance of learning what especially is out there, even if sometimes you don't know what's out there. You will soon after  you do it. 

Now for that oddly stated introduction, I just wanted to say, hey, yes hey that it's been absolutely expirational in terms of how long I've been putting off this post. Yes, I hate myself. But I guess it's the best time as any? after all, it goes with the theme. Being late, and expiration. So hey, I'm not so hopeless after all! 

For all things wonderful and positive, I just wanted to say, my life has been totally and utterly wonderful in terms of how filled things have been lately. Although my family has been, well always the same, I can't say it hasn't gotten worse, I mean it's gotten better. I just hope it lasts and improves over the course, or god sakes, I will find a way to find my introverted butt out of this toxic place you call "home" - But of course, there's no place like home and home is where the heart is at. So I can't say I don't try... 

As to where my presence and focus has been for the past ... well months, I've just been reflecting, questioning, and well... more questioning. That I slowly understood, questioning was the problem, too many questions that I couldn't solve, at least not yet. 
School... don't you just hate that word? Well, with school just around the corner, you can't help but wonder, what the hell is going to happen, how or what will this be like? You start to contemplate all the things that completely don't even matter until you brought it up. Like who's gonna be your friend or how you're gonna feel. No shutup, you're not there to socialize or to be the coolest kid there in the corner. You're there with a purpose, to learn, to get somewhere in life. Yup, that's right. It ain't highschool where you get to be the most cool and get away with shit. This is real life knocking on your door son/daughter. Believe it, this ain't Naruto, but you best believe it!

Yeah, that's how scary it may seem. Entering a new chapter is like entering a cave, not knowing where this cave will lead, or what kind of freakish mutant ninja turtle is gonna jump out and grab your bum. But truthfully, I made a decision in my life that I thought would end terribly, why? because it was a quick and honest decision I had to make with myself when deciding what college and what program I would be going to for the first time. And man, was it a bumpy and reactive ride, and when I say reactive, I mean unprepared and seriously fate striking reactive. Be free flowing, but be proactive. It will save your life. (thank god for my back up): Reason why I say that is because my backup became my decision. 

Yes, I must say, sometimes you just have to trust your decision with a hint of risk taking. Why? because sometimes you never know the outcome. Life is a gamble, really it is. No, it doesn't mean gamble your life away, it means take risks in order to gain progress. At times you'll move up two steps, but fall down three, another day you'll gain seven and move back six. But believe me, progress takes patience, and when you have patience, you have time. - And that's what I did, I waited out for the good moments, the rewards or opportunities that following. And I took whatever I felt would be good for me. Which all lead me to the first orientation, the information was wondrous! I walked into the school filled with nervousness, thinking I couldn't possibly make friends that day. But luckily I was just being myself. Quiet, listened and questioned. Guess what? I stood out more than I thought I did. I pushed myself, just a bit, and I ended up being invited to a Leadership Camp, from starting from no opportunity to many. That small effort lead to results I thought I could never have had achieved. 
When I say achieve I mean really achieve, by personal experience, I would have never done the things I've done, and I couldn't have done it alone. Without the aspiration and inspiration, there wouldn't be me here today, in this current place and time. I opened up, and spoke in front of 100 plus people. Man, that's crazy, especially to me... 

You can never allow the time to pass, or the opportunity to fly, you never know the rarity of it until it's gone, wishing you could of had it back. Expiration? that's the most important thing to remember, don't let your important chance to change in life expire. But do let your disappoint expire, because those are the things you need to let go of, the disappointments. 

Potential, it's all you. You're the decider, the artist. So start painting your vision...
"Don't let your dreams just be dreams!" 

Monday, 8 June 2015

Aspiration, Inspiration and Expiration - (Part 2 of 3: Inspiration)

'Aspiration, Inspiration, and Expiration

Quite awhile now, I've always thought inspiration came from the people of the world that inspired many with their amazing stories; people who lit up the eyes of many, people who touched the heart and souls of the audience with such awe. I've always wanted to be that person, the person who could touch the hearts of many with comforting words, mend the pain and questions that lingered. But of course, how could I do so with so many temperamental issues that I, myself couldn't even figure out with such frustration

For many years I have been dealing with the same ol' problems, same ol' arguments with myself and with family, friends and people of all areas of life. Slowly, I started to lose inspiration, slowly I started to doubt myself. - That's the worse thing you could ever do, the lost of inspiration and trust in our own hearts, the truth should belong to us, to remained lit with awe.

I've always told myself; to inspire the world, you must learn to inspire yourself. And for awhile I thought that inspiring myself through endless contemplation and thinking over and over again, that it would help motivate me. That at some point in my life, I would get up and do it. But of course, with thought, takes physical effort. Many times I've tried, for many I've always thought motivation was the key to inspiration.

After awhile, I was contradicting my own efforts to try harder than I should, to push through when needed. After reading articles after articles and still not being able to take action, I wanted answers, I've asked the all mighty universe for help, but of course, it was solely answered. It takes action to realize satisfaction, to realize that discipline will allow such constant inspiration to sink in.

Realizing such ideas came from a place of spiritual advisement. I was invited to my favourite place to be, the temple. Most people would question my idea of places to favourite, but believe me, this place feels like home to me. My family, my spiritual family who seek the truth in all religions, all creeds, and all truths. We do not discriminate, we do not push away, we welcome with open arms. It took me awhile to find a home like this, but now that I've found it, it's apart of my inspiration to take action.

With such introduction to such a place, the answers that came to me acted as inspiration as a figure of reminder, sometimes inspirations comes in pieces of reminder, pieces of reassurance that you're on the right path to your sole purpose in life. Leading such a mission alone, you're never truly alone. Inspiration comes from the peers that support you through such dark times, inspiration comes from the unconditional love of others willing to help, to share and to love. It's a way in which we learn.

From experience, I realize, always seek inspiration - every time of every day, seek inspiration. Seek it wherever your heart finds it, even if its from your cat, your dog, talking to yourself, going for walks or starring at the bright moon, the peers of your life, the stories in which you read. FIND IT, and love it. captivate it with such awe and appreciation for such wisdom.

Inspiration isn't constant if you stand in one place, if you run with it, swiftly flow with it, then, inspiration is constant.

Change is always required for inspiration, inspiration is required for change. 

Tuesday, 24 February 2015

Aspiration, Inspiration and Expiration - (Part 1 of 3: Aspiration)


'Aspiration, Inspiration, and Expiration

This entry is dedicated to all who seeks the understanding of their own life through mutual understanding...

Blogger's note
Greetings, although I may have been busy achieving many things in life, 
such as the achieving the 'starring at life blankly' award (sarcasm btw!), figuring out my life, realizing many things as to what my next steps are, and meeting many figures in life that continue to both aspire and inspire me through hard times in life. It's all very amazing, my journey is starting to feel all too real, finally... 
The moment that brings and reminds my heart and soul;
 my wondrous curiosity and joy of my playful heart is returning home... 
Some of these questions were meant to provoke the very inner being and aspiration in all of us. 
So take the time to stop and think, as you stop and contemplate on something rather important, remember all the feelings and thoughts that ponder your sub-conscious wonderland. 

 Part One
 How many of us had a dream? Something we wanted to fulfill or thought of change? 
Many of us understand that the hardest things in life are the one's we have to work for. Many of us understand that everything in life is given and gotten through effort alone. 
But how much effort is needed in order to achieve our dreams? 
I say  
'above and beyond your misconception alone.'

  "A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." - Winston Churchill
Someone important once told me, 
"everything in this world, everything you see in this very moment; past, present and future all around you, all of which you perceive is made of an idea, a thought, or an intention. Everything is intention; what we think and believe and what we do shapes the way life is shaped. 
Whatever we create in our mind, has the potential to be shaped into reality."
As the aspiring comedian and actor, Jim Carrey would put it, 
"It's our intention, intention is everything. Nothing is ever accomplished without intention."

With that being said, 
many things in our lives seem very complicated to achieve, maybe we're not good enough, maybe we were never good enough. Who am I to be? 
We come to an age where society's stigmatizes towards individuals' dreams of abnormality - many of our passions are frown as unrealistic or unachievable; we're told we can do anything, we can do whatever makes us happy, but then when we hit teenage years, we're told that we should be realistic, be a something that the world needs. 
Well, what does the world need? 
People who don't believe their full potentials and follow what society expects of them?
or, people who go above and beyond that potential and beyond all expectations?  

We live in a world that perpetuates the very ideas that make us unhappy at times, 
if we're not happy we become depressed and unsatisfied with life and give up on our dreams entirely.
Truth is, all there will ever be of our dreams are the ones in our heads, the ones who make their dreams come true, are the ones who chase it, create it, and share it.
 No matter what we do, we're never satisfied, throw away that comparative process of comparing yourself to the world, compare yourself to your own expectations, your world is what makes reality real. If we can turn a "my" mentality into a "our" mentality - aspiration would be our embodiment of external reality.
Something I've said once before - "I wish to turn"my" internal reality into "our" external reality." Because again, this world and universe was not meant for a "me" mentality, but a "we" mentality.
 We are oneness, we share the same happiness and sadness, why not share the love and experience we all embody? 

Change what you cannot accept and accept what you cannot change.
The world is waiting for the generation of change, so what will you do? Wait for the world to change, or take that first step of your own inner change?
Your wonderland is everything.
"A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step." - Lao-Tzu

Something to think about:
"What aspires you to achieve your dreams? Is it your family? Your friends? The people of the world? Whatever your reasons may be, find it, most importantly that comes from within, your own inner-self. Find your dreams within yourself and you will find the reason for why you try.

Key: Optimism and perspective will enable larger understanding of perception.

Thursday, 1 January 2015

Closed Doors, Open Mind, New Chapters

 Inspirational Note:

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

Too often we think that when something ends, it's completely over, and that's it. 
But big ups! It's just the beginning, every end has a beginning, every beginning has an end.When a door closes another one flies open.

Too often people dwell in the past hoping that things will change, and that things will change on it's own. Nothing in life changes without some sort of effort.
"Life without a cause is a life without effect." - Paulo Coelho (Novel: Aleph)

Let's all just take this time of moment to just take in all the changes that this world is currently experiencing; in others' lives, and most importantly our own lives. Take in that the world is changing, negatively and positively like life was meant to. Take the moment to understand that time is only an illusion, don't worry about how much time you once had, and how much time you do have. Think about all of which you accomplished in such time, and create a master-plan on exceeding it. Take the time to realize that everything, including all the pain and suffering we've all have to endure was completely essential for our growth, the same as the laughter and love we all share with our fellow people and life itself.

When we close a chapter, another one opens and a new story is told... Live your life as if it were a story, write the introduction, the conflicts and the solutions to all aspects of your life and become the character you set out to create. Be the magic of  your own imagination and creativity, live life as if you were once a child again, dream as if you were in an entirely new world and love like you never loved before. 

Take the time to stop and think, to grab a hold of your thoughts and your feelings, express it, share it with someone dear, scream whenever you're upset. Let it all go, lose control and regain it all back again.  Fall down 7 times, get back 8, we get back up because we know we deserve more, to learn and to grow and to strive like no other. Keep your head up, 2015 is only the beginning.

"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." - Randy Pausch

2015, Bring it On.

Creation of Hands that Create (Day 1)

New Years (2015)
1 of 365:

You know, someone or something once told me; To be patient, that one day you will meet people exactly like you...
To this very day, I still ask myself:
'In what world is this whisper coming from? Who is the person who allows me to think these thoughts that clearly isn't entirely one's own thoughts?'
Who allows me to see into this world we call reality and who allows me to dream it?
Who chooses how our life plays out ?
Us or God?

It's not easy finding inspiration is it? Nor is it easy finding what exactly your life purpose is. I guess that's why I wish to blog, to write, to somehow inspire and to make connections and manifest my thoughts into this very reality around me, because my dreams tell me to... But there's a fine-line to that! Dreams are far from this world than we think, but as close as we imagine them to be. Think of a star that shines in the night canvas of the sky, the moon that illuminates over our world casting the very shadow that is "us", the gold crimson ball of life that comes out to shine every waking moment of our lives. What more could we entirely ask for? All is given to us, we have the entire package, the resources to create a masterpiece, in every moment is a gift to be given and received from best of both worlds.

Okay, Let's admit being the person that I am, many times have I allowed those moments go to waste, many times have I sat there and wondered "Am I capable of being who I dream to be?" and honestly? I'll never truly know, Unless! Yes, unless I try, unless I put my beliefs into thoughts, thoughts into words, words into action, actions into habits, habits into values, and finally your values become your DESTINY. (Words inspired by Gandhi) If you're going to fail at something, fail at something you're passionate about, fail at something that will teach you meaning and purpose.

What is your destiny?
But first, what is your beliefs, your thoughts, your words, your action, your habits?
Because that, that creates your destiny...

                                                            You're your own Leonardo Da Vinci, create your own 'Mona Lisa' with the same hands and visions you were set out to create with.
Your destiny, is like a story, the story of ____________. (Insert your AWESOME name here.) Now, it's an extraordinary story because you're the author, the narrator, the characters, you're the creator... and the story itself is YOU, you are a living story. We dream about our future, planning what we exactly want, but truth is all there will ever be are ghosts behind those empty doors that never truly existed to begin with. We create problems for ourselves that were never truly there, in a sense we unnecessarily make our lives harder than what it truly is.

No one said Life would be easy, and there is no set time to fully achieving your true purpose, whatever your purpose may come to be, it is at your own pace. I must admit to the fact that I tend to give up more often than I'm proud of, but I always seem to amaze myself how many times I've fallen and got back up. How many times I've been broken into a million pieces and still manage to put the pieces back together. I could say that I entirely did that myself, but I'll just be a liar! Life will always be the greatest lesson, the greatest influence in our lives and our biggest enemy and the biggest asset to our external and internal world; we are the deciders "we are the wild youth, chasing visions of our futures, maybe one day, we will reveal the truth..." - (Lyrics by Daughter - Youth)

The beings of life will continue to push and pull at you until you realize that you have more control than you imagine, you can fight back or allow the forces of life to beat at you, step all over you, or you can say "NO, I'm the player, so lets play the game..." And play it to win. If you fail, play it harder, and harder,  and harder. Until you become the best of your world and God's world.
If you want something, simple: If you want to be a writer, then write. If you want to be a painter, pick up the paint brush, if you want to take over your life? Then pick up yourself, pick up all the shit in your life, and plant a garden. What are you waiting for? Turn that chapter, and start writing...
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
 - Marianne Williamson(speech given by Nelson Mandala in 1996.)

 Words of Gratitude:
(I would like to say, thank you to all my inspiration to all of life and everything in it that inspires me to grow and to learn. I truly didn't feel very motivated to do this, but I guess the people in my life and the voice in my head, convinced me to sit here for quite awhile, and push me to write, to try and inspire, to push, and to pick up that controller, and control...)